The Obstacle in my path

I wrote this almost 30 years ago sometime around 1990…

Sometimes when I get really angry at the circumstances of the environment that surrounds me,

I like to take long walks.

With my eyes fixed to the ground that passes beneath my feet, I begin to think about all the things that frustrate me about the world in which I live.

I think about the insincerity, the hatred, the prejudices, the insecurity, the anger, the frustration, the confusion, the urgency, the selfishness, and most of all…the absence of love.

These thoughts engulf my mind as I look with my eyes; and as I crush the fallen leaves under my feet, these thoughts engulf my heart.

Didn't someone whisper, "If you can't beat them, join them"? Or did I just hear someone mutter, "It's survival of the fittest”?

Even that book says something like, "an eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth."

Why should I be different? I can't make a difference by myself, anyway.

So, I walk on with these thoughts and with my eyes still fixed on the ground that I trample on,... and yet, is it not this same ground that supports me?

Suddenly, my body shutters, and the cold and angry thoughts leave my heart and mind as my whole existence is focused on an obstacle in my path.

And as I step back and lift my eyes, I realize where I have journeyed—

to the foot of The Cross.